without virtue. without perfume

today im home sick with the flu. so i decided to get caught up on my reading. i have a few books i am working my way through for my other blog. (foodstoliveby) and of course watching my fill of girly movies. 

the one i am most excited to read is by Marion Nestle, its called What To Eat. Basically a guide book to food. Its always helpful to get other peoples perspectives on different foods and nutrition ideas. of course i always think mine are the best, :) but best for me maybe not everyone else. Plus Michael Pollan gave it a great review so it must mean its good. 

hopefully ill get through it over the next week or so, i will let you know how it goes. and of course if it meets my standards for recommendation :)

 i am attending a wedding in 100 days. i started looking at dresses, then i realized that id like to look a lot different by then.

so 100 days.

i know its only tuesday and I shouldn’t be complaining but ugh! 
at work today we had a holiday pot-luck instead of the usual wednesday meeting. we have a new staff member, she has been with us a week so no one really knows her yet. everyone was about ready to eat and she stands up and asks for everyone’s attention, the whole room is silent. she then asks if we can bless the food and everyone awkwardly agreed..(we don’t have a whole lot of religious people among our team) then, and im not exaggerating, demands we “stand up in respect of our father”
needless to say not everyone was to quick to jump to their feet. now don’t get me wrong i am fine with prayer, but the way she handled the situation was awkward and just didn’t feel right. not to mention we’re a state funded institution and its pretty frowned upon to bring up religion at work much less force people to pray. i am not sure why it bothered me so much, maybe because in my eyes that did more harm than good. the whole rest of the time you could hear hushed conversations about how wrong or offensive it was. 


next i find out i have to train someone today. it doesn’t sound so bad, but when you have a job like mine it can get pretty annoying. i was supposed to pick them up at the center at 1:15, so i get there and she is in a meeting so I wait, before i know it 30 minutes goes by and i am late for my next client. i go and try to hurry them and basically get shut down. so im late to get my client, which means he’s late to his activity. luckily he is a sweetheart and is sweet about it, but i could tell he was annoyed. then we go to my next client, her goal is exercise. the person im training asked me what she should do while we’re working out. seriously!? you are supposed to come with us, that the whole point of you training with me is to see how a normal shift goes! 
so she grabs a magazine and ignores us the entire two hours. awesome to have you on board.


some people may not think what i do is all that exciting, and sometimes its not but i take a lot of pride in my job and to have someone react that way just urks me. if you’re going to act like that go work in retail. fyi: just in case you don’t know, i work with adults with special needs most of whom have psychological disorders. 


hopefully i can burn off some of this steam at the gym! i just took my protein shake and am feeling a bit better. it isn’t much more than protein, but it tastes like a drink you’d find at one of those amazing white sandy beach resorts. it helps that i blend it with mangos and pineapples. i have kind of stopped doing the 30 Day Shred, it was a high impact workout but its just not enough of a work out for me. i decided to try the more intense 40 minute workout in addition to my gym time. ill let you know how that goes in a couple hours…

i want to nap, i feel like crap.

stupid work, stupid bills, stupid rent, stupid not being able to nap with Stephen all day. 

i am exhausted. i wish it was sunday, i just need one more day to rest.

this weekend was crazy.

i am so tireddddddddddd. 

holy exhausted.
at least trader joes is coming to DES MOINES!!!

apartment hunting!